Comments on: Marked inside. http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/ it ain't just the hair that's kinky Wed, 08 Feb 2012 02:41:46 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 By: mollena http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5881 mollena Sat, 02 May 2009 02:29:07 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5881 I am glad that people were able to feel good about that performance. It is really really really really hard for me each and every time I get up and naked in front of a room full of people, knowing that I am compared to other women with different bodies. But then the scene starts and I just...feel. And I don't worry any more. It was awesome to be able to see your smiling face throughout the weekend. Having friends at an event makes ALL of the difference when things go south, and makes things all the more AMAZING when you have a moment of triumph. love Mo I am glad that people were able to feel good about that performance. It is really really really really hard for me each and every time I get up and naked in front of a room full of people, knowing that I am compared to other women with different bodies. But then the scene starts and I just…feel. And I don’t worry any more.

It was awesome to be able to see your smiling face throughout the weekend. Having friends at an event makes ALL of the difference when things go south, and makes things all the more AMAZING when you have a moment of triumph.

love

Mo

]]> By: mollena http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5880 mollena Sat, 02 May 2009 02:26:47 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5880 Thank you. SO much. It is interesting how even the people in the spotlight go through precisely the same sit as everybody else, but somehow we rarely reveal this. Well, except for gut spilling TM-fucking-I Mollena Williams. I too had an awesome experience. Soon I hope to unpack the good stuff. xoxo ~Mollena Thank you. SO much. It is interesting how even the people in the spotlight go through precisely the same sit as everybody else, but somehow we rarely reveal this.

Well, except for gut spilling TM-fucking-I Mollena Williams.

I too had an awesome experience. Soon I hope to unpack the good stuff.

xoxo

~Mollena

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]]> By: ally http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5871 ally Thu, 30 Apr 2009 03:19:18 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5871 After the rope theater Friday night, a few of my friends and I were talking about how amazing you are and how you made us see things differently. You see, the day before, about a half dozen of us were complaining we had nothing to wear and how fat we felt. After we saw the rope scene you were in, you were stunningly beautiful, and we realized that with confidence, we can all look as beautiful as you are. I'm so glad I got to finally meet you in person. I just wish we had more one on one time. I think you would have enjoyed hanging out with some of my friends. For a while we just hung out in the hotel room, sometime after dinner and the speeches. I unexpectedly got to play with Lord Bob very late on Sat. night. And I'm sure he would have enjoyed meeting you and maybe even playing as well (if you were interested of course). I've partnered with an Old Guard, Gay Leatherman. He's a Sadist--thank goodness! We don't have a named relationship (i.e. S/m, D/s), but we both enjoy each other's company, we both like to play, and right now it's the perfect balm for two wounded souls. Anyway, Mo, it was such a pleasure to be in your class, chat with you, watch you in the theater and I hope to see you again at BL2010 or even sooner at another event. I'm sorry you had some difficult moments, but I hope you were still able to have some great moments. love, ally After the rope theater Friday night, a few of my friends and I were talking about how amazing you are and how you made us see things differently. You see, the day before, about a half dozen of us were complaining we had nothing to wear and how fat we felt. After we saw the rope scene you were in, you were stunningly beautiful, and we realized that with confidence, we can all look as beautiful as you are.

I’m so glad I got to finally meet you in person. I just wish we had more one on one time. I think you would have enjoyed hanging out with some of my friends. For a while we just hung out in the hotel room, sometime after dinner and the speeches. I unexpectedly got to play with Lord Bob very late on Sat. night. And I’m sure he would have enjoyed meeting you and maybe even playing as well (if you were interested of course).

I’ve partnered with an Old Guard, Gay Leatherman. He’s a Sadist–thank goodness! We don’t have a named relationship (i.e. S/m, D/s), but we both enjoy each other’s company, we both like to play, and right now it’s the perfect balm for two wounded souls.

Anyway, Mo, it was such a pleasure to be in your class, chat with you, watch you in the theater and I hope to see you again at BL2010 or even sooner at another event. I’m sorry you had some difficult moments, but I hope you were still able to have some great moments.

love,
ally

]]> By: mollena http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5869 mollena Tue, 28 Apr 2009 22:24:56 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5869 Hello, Nicole Thank you, SO much, for that. It was interesting to me today to realize in retrospect how big a deal it was for me to say "No, that was not OK." and stick to it...and then to follow that up with some difficult talk. I am doing the Pretend Big Girl thing and acting as if I'm brave enough to be brave. Peace. Mollena Hello, Nicole

Thank you, SO much, for that. It was interesting to me today to realize in retrospect how big a deal it was for me to say “No, that was not OK.” and stick to it…and then to follow that up with some difficult talk. I am doing the Pretend Big Girl thing and acting as if I’m brave enough to be brave.

Peace.

Mollena

]]> By: Sarah http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5862 Sarah Mon, 27 Apr 2009 13:13:22 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5862 "In these Leather Event situations, when you are in high profile mode, you certainly don’t have time to be a mopey shithead when you are a presenter. " True, at least in public & when you are fulfilling core responsibilities (like teaching, stage appearance time, etc.). But you do have a right, and a responsibility to yourself, to deal with the stuff that comes up when you need to. I am infamously bad at being at events for more than a day and a half; I get low on emotional & spiritual energy, I feel out of place & (often) unwanted and unattractive, and I know that when I feel like that I need to retreat and regroup. I think you did an amazing job. I truly, truly do. I wish I had been able to engage more with you in the weekend, as you are quite a role model for me in so many ways. I don't understand what the vagaries of the universe are that throw shit like this in our way; I do know that it makes us even stronger. I got a lot out of BL weekend; primarily meeting you and one other presenter that I didn't know before. xoxoxoxoxox “In these Leather Event situations, when you are in high profile mode, you certainly don’t have time to be a mopey shithead when you are a presenter. ”

True, at least in public & when you are fulfilling core responsibilities (like teaching, stage appearance time, etc.). But you do have a right, and a responsibility to yourself, to deal with the stuff that comes up when you need to. I am infamously bad at being at events for more than a day and a half; I get low on emotional & spiritual energy, I feel out of place & (often) unwanted and unattractive, and I know that when I feel like that I need to retreat and regroup.

I think you did an amazing job. I truly, truly do. I wish I had been able to engage more with you in the weekend, as you are quite a role model for me in so many ways. I don’t understand what the vagaries of the universe are that throw shit like this in our way; I do know that it makes us even stronger. I got a lot out of BL weekend; primarily meeting you and one other presenter that I didn’t know before.

xoxoxoxoxox

]]> By: Nicole http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5861 Nicole Mon, 27 Apr 2009 06:16:09 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5861 This entry of yours inadvertently helped me. Unfortunately, my longing to be loved and accepted has a tendency to overpower my common sense and morals. The thought of rejection incapacitates me, but I'm working on eradicating that undesired trait. I both applaud and admire you for prevailing where me and so many others regularly fail for whatever reasons. Whenever I find myself in situations that test my self-confidence, I'll keep this story in mind to aide me in finding the best solution to the problem without acting on negative impulses or letting the wounded side get the better of me. Thank you, Mollena. This entry of yours inadvertently helped me. Unfortunately, my longing to be loved and accepted has a tendency to overpower my common sense and morals. The thought of rejection incapacitates me, but I’m working on eradicating that undesired trait. I both applaud and admire you for prevailing where me and so many others regularly fail for whatever reasons. Whenever I find myself in situations that test my self-confidence, I’ll keep this story in mind to aide me in finding the best solution to the problem without acting on negative impulses or letting the wounded side get the better of me.

Thank you, Mollena.

]]> By: mollena http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5856 mollena Mon, 27 Apr 2009 05:02:12 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5856 I'm tryin' to hold on to that rockin' feeling :-) xoxo Mo I’m tryin’ to hold on to that rockin’ feeling :-)

xoxo

Mo

]]> By: mollena http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5855 mollena Mon, 27 Apr 2009 04:44:30 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5855 Trust you, elfin, to sound that clear bell. Love Mo Trust you, elfin, to sound that clear bell.

Love

Mo

]]> By: mollena http://www.mollena.com/2009/04/marked-inside/comment-page-1/#comment-5854 mollena Mon, 27 Apr 2009 04:43:58 +0000 http://www.mollena.com/?p=2838#comment-5854 Hey Kat! I think I am very impressed with me too. Risking displeasure and facing down someone who is angry are 2 of my top 5 most terrifying emotional hurdles. And I kinda kicked ass. Even this evening when the wonk came around again, and I had a chance to put myself in a potentially uncomfortable position if being sidelined...again...but maybe having the chance to get a little bit of affection, I chose to say no. Part of me is feeling like <i>"Oh shit. You Had the chance to play with <b>ME</b>....and you blew it. TWICE?! Are you fucking crazy?!" </i> and that is the part I am trying to nurture. The part that assumes the popular tops and dominants will of course go for the prettier cuter little young thing and likes to beat us up for having the temerity to think someone would want us...that part we're trying to treat with compassion, and let it go away. xoxo love Mo Hey Kat!

I think I am very impressed with me too. Risking displeasure and facing down someone who is angry are 2 of my top 5 most terrifying emotional hurdles. And I kinda kicked ass. Even this evening when the wonk came around again, and I had a chance to put myself in a potentially uncomfortable position if being sidelined…again…but maybe having the chance to get a little bit of affection, I chose to say no.

Part of me is feeling like “Oh shit. You Had the chance to play with ME….and you blew it. TWICE?! Are you fucking crazy?!” and that is the part I am trying to nurture.

The part that assumes the popular tops and dominants will of course go for the prettier cuter little young thing and likes to beat us up for having the temerity to think someone would want us…that part we’re trying to treat with compassion, and let it go away.

xoxo

love

Mo

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