That whole “The eyes are the window of the soul” thing is often true. I know I tend to thoughtless transparence in terms of eye contact. However, a lifetime of being the pleaser, the performer, of being trained to display emotions at will makes me feel a bit outside of this trope.
Sure, it is easy for me to deceive, but I am disinclined to do so.
And interestingly, I am an absolutely shitty, shitty liar.
I am always surprised by this. Isn’t all theater, at its heart, a type of lie? I’m not REALLY the queen of a city under siege / woman disguised at the pope / a worked in a haunted slaughterhouse / a supernatural undersea witch, am I?
No, and yes.
The way I approach life is to be as in the moment and find as many connections as possible. A great deal of this can be accomplished by finding that within you that IS real. While I don’t have to BE any of those characters, part of me IS. Emotions are universal and life is as huge as the cosmos and as small as the flagellum on a protozoan and both things are the same size, in many ways.
When you look into someone’s eyes, their naked gaze, as it were, what are you seeing?
What you want to see?
What they want you to see?
Yourself reflected back?
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I wish to see what is being brought to the table…… I want Reality 101 asap….. I want to know it’s me you want, ’cause
I dont fatten frogs for snakes….. we are one or it’s done…… I love very deeply….
lamesabassman….. and I take no prisoners…… ever…
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mollena Reply:
September 4th, 2009 at 12:36 am
**confetti**
it seems fitting for yours to be the 2,000th post, riposte or trackback posted to my lil blog.
Yay!
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lamesabassman Reply:
September 8th, 2009 at 10:06 pm
as ” E” would say….. ” Thank you…. thank you very much…”
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Comment by lamesabassman — September 3, 2009 @ 12:03 pm
I love this post.
I’m a shitty liar, I don’t even try. I’m very bluntly honest by nature anyway though so lying just isn’t something I care to do anyway. Though at times, when it comes to being less honest to spare someone their feelings perhaps, I’m not good at that because I can be given away through my eyes. If the fumbling over words doesn’t give it away first. So, I tend to just not even trying to bend the truth.
The way I approach life is to be very in the moment and finding as many connections as possible as well. I think I see a lot of myself in this post which is why it appeals to me so much. I struggle at times though, when it comes to what inside me is real and what inside me isn’t real. If that makes sense.
That is a great picture. Sorry for leaving such a long novel in your comments, lol. Happy HNT!
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mollena Reply:
September 13th, 2009 at 3:06 am
Oh gosh never apologize for sharing your thoughts and stories here!! I like feeling as though I have virtual company here!
Peace.
Mo
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Comment by Amorous Rocker — September 3, 2009 @ 12:25 pm
this reminds me of that nine inch nails song about your reflection and what you really see when you’re on the other side
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mollena Reply:
September 13th, 2009 at 3:07 am
I don’t care what anyone says…NIN is quite insightful to some darker emotions.
Peace.
Mollena
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Comment by the eternal list — September 3, 2009 @ 12:41 pm
I agree, I was going to say the same thing about the NIN song.
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mollena Reply:
September 13th, 2009 at 3:08 am
GMTA, Ms. Sexypants!!
xoxo
Mo
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Comment by Vixen — September 3, 2009 @ 4:27 pm
I just like that picture of Ganesha in the background. Awesome black velvet depiction.
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mollena Reply:
September 13th, 2009 at 3:09 am
Isn’t is AWESOME?? I purchased it at The Love Of Ganesha: a lovely store here in The Haight
xoxo
Mo
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Comment by Mama Gaea — September 7, 2009 @ 3:29 pm