No, really. I’m good.

February 22, 2011 |

I typically become profoundly uncomfortable when I cannot craft my thoughts or feelings into words. This becomes especially irritating when someone asks me how I am feeling, what I am thinking, and I am nonplussed and vacant, ready with neither quick quip nor reasoned, seasoned response. The capacity to think quickly and clearly is one…

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Quiet.

February 4, 2011 |

I handed over my cell phone with a wry smile when @TheDominantGuy held out his hand for it. Wednesday morning’s drive from the airport saw me handing over my external brain. I tend to be a bit of a mess without it to let me know where I am supposed to be and what I…

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I want.

January 29, 2011 |

I want to be…   Pleasing   Well-behaved   and   obedient.   I want to be pliant, compliant.   The empty vessel.   I want to be everything all of the time. I want to be sure-footed, confident. I want to be…perfect.     Problem is…   …my demon says, chewing thoughtfully on her…

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No Wrong Answers.

January 20, 2011 |

It is important for me to “get it right” when I’m explaining myself. Interestingly, I do this very well with little effort so when I feel like I’m missing the mark I have an initial “nose out of joint” moment until I remember “If they aren’t getting you, re-direct. It will come.”     This…

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Because I forget sometimes? Thank you.

January 14, 2011 |

I am moved today to give thanks. Thank you to the people who support me, who have the bravery to be my friends. Thank you to the people who listen to me, and thank you to the people who offer their homes, their support, and their help. Thank you to the people who, by their…

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Making me cry.

January 4, 2011 |

No one will be surprised to read I’m a pretty emotionally dynamic person. Always have been. Things impact my insides, sometimes in ways that taste strange even to me. Emotions, I know, are only as crucial as one makes them. It can be tough for me on some days to let go of emotions that…

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The messenger.

December 14, 2010

Travel Days are their own disorienting haze and yesterday’s was particularly brutal what with a 5 hour time change and an 80° temperature differential. Aruba to Dublin? Nice work if you can get it. On the second leg of my trip, JFK –> DUB, I was worn a bit thin, but I was wearing the…

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Wanting.

October 5, 2010 |

I want to do it right, whatever it is. I want to be pleasing. I want to be beautiful. I want to be gracious. I want to be patient. I want to be strong. I want to be submissive. I want to be able to anticipate. I want to be ready. I want to be…

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Osculation. Elevated.

September 29, 2010 |

“The Decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender; because this kiss already has within it that surrender.” ~ Emil Ludwig I tell people kissing is underrated. It is so intimate, and so…

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